In those beginning stages, I was fighting so hard yet didn’t even know that I was fighting. I was fighting the aloneness because it required me to let go of some relationships and face the girl in the mirror. I didn’t want to talk to her heck I didn’t really like her. I wanted someone to physically rescue me, and God was taking to long.
There is a difference between reading the word in general and seeking the word with intent looking for solutions. What I thought was elementary or a sign of ignorance because I didn’t know how to read the bible, turned out to be an encounter with the person and presence of God I didn’t know I needed.
This week I had to have a tough conversation with a friend. Though we have been friends over 20yrs, I found myself hesitant in engaging in the conversation. We fell out a few months ago, and while the interaction upset me and hurt my feelings, I had decided we were no longer friends. And while we hadn't spoke since then, I did express my frustration to God and other friends who did not know her personally. Well this weekend she called out the blue, being busy at work, gave me the excuse to get off the phone stating "I'll call you back later". Later didn't come so she left me a lengthy voicemail. Honestly I really wanted to ignore it,...
