Can I have a real conversation with you for a moment? It’s been an emotional roller coaster with me, and I hate to admit it, for at least the last two years. In regards to my purpose and my business I’ve just been contemplating over and over in my mind what to do to help it grow. Even after hearing clearly from God to focus on healing. Even after obtaining the download from Holy Spirit for a new prompted journal line. Even after receiving instructions to focus on creating those journals, this blog and my podcast. I was still left in a state of confusion. Or at least I thought it was confusion, because after all the clarity and directives, I still didn’t have the motivation or energy to do it and do it consistently. In attempting to pray, the only words that would come out was “God I’m tired. Tired of walking this thing alone, where is the help you promised me.”
Sunday, as I sat in church, engulfed in worship, the tears began to flow and I heard the Lord say “Let Go. Let go, not of my promises, but of the timing in which you expected them. What you are experiencing is disappointment, and it is depleting your energy, confusing your thoughts, and stirring up depression within you. Because you feel like you can’t be happy until those promises manifest. You see daughter you’re holding on so tightly that you have decided when and how it will happen, so much so that you have restricted my movement. I am your Father, you can always talk to me about anything. Admit the disappointment, let go of the timing, and allow me to restore and complete a work in you.”
So I say to you my sisters in Christ, LET GO. I know that we began this pursuit of healing and purpose to obtain something we greatly wanted from God. Admit that you are disappointed it hasn’t happened by now. Admit that the lack of it makes you want to give up. But your love for God and the yes you spoke years ago won’t allow you too. Heck admit that you’re frustrated you can’t give up🤷🏾♀️. Release it all, then allow Him to restore. Commit to stop reminding God of the years that have passed and choose joy in the journey. God has not forgotten you, in fact, what He has for you is better than you could imagine. Hold on a little while longer and set your focus on God and let Him handle the rest.
But seek ye first the kingdom of God, and his righteousness; and all these things shall be added unto you. - Matthew 6:33