When it comes to the healing journey, one has to be ready to be stripped of previous knowledge especially subconsciously. Much of what trauma and hurt taught us was a false understanding of love, honor, trust, acceptance, etc. God has to reprogram us, create in us a clean heart.
In those beginning stages, I was fighting so hard yet didn’t even know that I was fighting. I was fighting the aloneness because it required me to let go of some relationships and face the girl in the mirror. I didn’t want to talk to her heck I didn’t really like her. I wanted someone to physically rescue me, and God was taking to long.
There is a difference between reading the word in general and seeking the word with intent looking for solutions. What I thought was elementary or a sign of ignorance because I didn’t know how to read the bible, turned out to be an encounter with the person and presence of God I didn’t know I needed.
I was 18 yrs old, just graduated high school, smelling myself and thinking I was grown grown and ready to express and embrace my independence. My friends and I decided we was gonna go meet up with some boys in Binghampton. I lied to my mom and told her I would be staying with a friend who had moved from Getwell Garden to Binghampton as well as babysitting for my auntie Pam (R.I.P). We actually stayed in a TRAP house with some guys on Princeton. I met this guy and was laid up with him all week. One night, another guy came over, and asked me to iron his clothes for him to go to the club. Well, I said...
When I first started my writing and purpose journey in 2014, all God said was “Your books will bring healing to the nations”. That’s it! Every book/journal I have published since then has been under the assignment and obedience to release what He has shown, placed and did in me. Over the years I’ve imagined what that vision will look like: best selling author, speaking and traveling the world and because none of that has happened I’ve procrastinated at times on my assignment. I’ve grown weary in well doing. I’ve spent money on coaches to give me a strategy. I created and rebranded my websites 50-11 times. I’ve created and started coaching programs to teach people what I know/do. I’ve...
