Often times the flight from healing is because the life pause required feels like the very rejection you need to heal from. Rather than embrace the process we mourn the loss of our wants and desires.
Real talk, I would rather be selling books, meeting clients, living my best life traveling seeing the world but instead I'm watching others partake in the happiness I desperately want. It feels like every effort to market, promote, network, etc is met with a brick wall ... HELLO PANDEMIC!
But Delay is not denial! I know its a cute cliche, and I despise cliches. But that phrase has been ringing in my ears alot lately. I responded "Ok God I hear you"
But the hard truth is if we really "hear" Him ... Why are we rushing? Why are we seeking a word from every prophet? Why are we seeking validation from friends and family? Why are we so desperate to be seen, heard, and acknowledged by others? Why are we bombarding heaven with "get me out Jesus", "where are you" or "hurry up Lord" prayers?
Because if we really believed that God loves us, is waiting to bless us, and everything happens in His appointed time, then we would REST well! Rest is not about sleep. But Rest is about trust. In order to rest well, we have to realize and accept that we are not in control. When we accepted Jesus as Lord of our lives, that means we allow Him to be orchestrator and facilitator of our healing and purpose.
I am weary with my groaning; All night I make my bed swim; I drench my couch with my tears. My eye wastes away because of grief; It grows old because of all my enemies. Depart from me, all you workers of iniquity; For the Lord has heard the voice of my weeping.The Lord has heard my supplication; The Lord will receive my prayer. - Psalm 6: 6-9
Rest well daughter, knowing that God hears you and is not withholding those things from you. You are not alone. He is with you. You don't have to live vicariously through others ... live through God, for God and with God.